oh okay, i am just so confused. i would never hurt jessi the way i did the first time. i want him back so much. it is hurting me so much inside. his friends are still friends with me, which makes like no sense, but it is whatever. i just don’t know what to do. i love him, i want him, it is no one else, and even the new guy, knows i am not ready. the new guy gave me a hug today, and it didn’t feel like when jessi gave me a hug. i just am so lost.

natalee