Teak,

I really want to be “healed”. But, my mind is fighting me every day. At the moment, my whole life feels wasted. I don’t know why, but I’m second-guessing everything I do and even did in my past, from early age till now. I get anxious just by thinking about tomorrow. I’m afraid of sleeping, I can’t cope, I’m afraid all the time. Sometimes I just want to be drugged-down so I’m not able to feel or think anything. I don’t know my needs or core life values, everything just seems non-existent. To wake up like this every day makes it really hard to find any silver linings. The only thing keeping me motivated is this forum and all your courageous words.