Dear Anita,

That’s exactly what i feel like. i feel like if there was a way i could swallow him whole so that he can see just how deeply i felt. But i am not trying to make him see anymore.  I am more disappointed in myself more than anything. I am disappointed that i showed affection to someone that doesn’t know how to receive love. I should have known better and walked off before it got to this.  It is his loss.

I just want to be ok. I want to be indifferent. but i also want to remember this whole ordeal so that the next time i meet another person like him, i will be able to read them before i allow them into my life. I think this keeps happening because i have not been learning my lesson. this time around i am taking my time and making sure that i completely learn my lesson.  I feel like that’s the only time i will be able to move past this point.

regards,

Elizabeth