I was a good son towards my dad even though we didn’t have the best of relationships at times. I think I feel guilty because I’ve always wanted to stop watching porn because I am a Christian and I know it’s bad. Also after all these bad events that have happened to me I just want to live a perfect peaceful life. After I watched porn I felt like I made a massive mistake and that I need to fix this mistake I’ve made so that I can live this peaceful perfect life I so wish to live because I’m tired of bad things happening to me. And like I said my sister emotionally abusing a lot just didn’t help the situation I think she broke me.