Hi TeaK,

I am extremely grateful for your message, which I am going to read over and over till the words stick.  You have helped me (and Anita) to rationalize the situation.

Yes, you have hit the nail on the head with regards to my colleague/ boss.  Of course, always a person in power is attractive, and also when that person sees good in you and thinks you are good at your job and is attracted to you, of course, that will give you a buzz.  The thing is, I am not looking for someone else and if it was it wouldn’t be my boss 🙂  I knew from the beginning that this behavior is something he would have performed multiple times, with multiple women, I just enjoyed his company.  Yes I was attracted and yes I did want to have sex with him, but I didn’t I stopped it, and apart from a couple of times in April when I had two indiscretions (thanks again Anita), the reason for me to stray was due to a need that I needed filling.  Yes, I did feel amazing I had a skip in my step I was buzzing at life.

The doctor was not that helpful wanted to fob me off with medication.  I have taken the beta-blockers to help with heart rate and I have also signed up for some counseling.

Yes a mother-type, a non-judgemental person would be just what I need.

I am truly, truly grateful to you and Anita for your support over the last week and for taking the time to help me.  I hope one day I can help someone like you have helped me.