Dear ginn:

“They have been through a lot of hardship…. To be honest, I don’t care about the money, I just need it for my parents so they can have a better life. So, I can freely chase my passion“-

– Reads to me that for a long time, you felt very, very sorry for your parents for having lives of hardship, so you decided early on to postpone your own life, including your passions (whatever they may be), so to give them a better life first. You figured that after you give them a better life, then you will give yourself the permission to have your own life, your own passions.

Fast forward, you did not succeed in giving your parents a better life, so your own life is still on hold. Did I understand correctly?

anita