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Hello! Anita, thanks for the reply. It all started on my first day of my third year of high school. I was a huge fan of Lady Gaga back then. She was super popular, and rumors started to circulate at my school that she was part of a devil-worshipping group called the “Illuminati.” “Worshipping the devil” became stuck in my mind to the point where it became the voices of the demon pushing me to worship them: ( All I did during my 3rd year & 4th year of high school was to cry alone because someone was pushing me to worship the dark side and join them. I didn’t want that to happen. I was a religious person back then. I love Jesus Christ, and there was a time when I considered killing myself because of these dark voices (jumping to the mall or hanging myself). Those were very dark years of my life. I do not want to remember any of my high school memories, and I was a loner back then. My only friend transferred to another school, and I was being bullied about my sexuality and weird personality. Suddenly, those voices started to go away during my college days because I started to discover K-pop, which was an answer to prayer from God. I wasn’t okay during my college days because I was still a loner back then. I push people away and I’m thankful for those voices gone for the mean time. Right now, I’m suffering from restless leg syndrome with dark voices. I can’t think of ending my life because of this. I’m still fighting Anita.