Dear noname:

“I’ve discovered is that I don’t know what to do with myself. I have 3 free weekdays and the weekend also, which I struggled to fill with anything that felt meaningful to me… My plan was to get into a craft… However, I didn’t feel motivation to do those things… Then I end up feeling overwhelmed which leads me to addictive behaviors or depression and doing nothing at all…how empty my life feels. ….I don’t feel a part of anything… I spent most of that free time in isolation (the recent covid spike didn’t help either)” –

– this reminded me of a little online research I’ve done last month for another member on the topic of Chronic Emptiness (pub med. ncbi. nlm. nih. org, understanding chronic feelings of emptiness in borderline personality disorder), it reads in part: “Chronic feelings of emptiness were experienced as a feeling of disconnection from both self and others, and a sense of numbness and nothingness which was frequent and reduced functional capacity…chronic emptiness may be related to depressive experiences unique to people with BPD, and was associated with self-harm, suicidality, and lower social and vocational function… We conclude that understanding chronic feelings of emptiness is central to the experience of people with BPD and treatment focusing on connecting with self and others may help alleviate a sense of emptiness. Further research is required to provide a better understanding of the nature of chronic emptiness in BPD in order to develop ways to quantify the experience and target treatment”.

Is there anything here that is news to you, anything that may help you in any way?

anita

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