No I didn‘t see a medical doctor and unfortunately I‘m not  able to do so bc of some private reason.  These compulsions have become such a natural thing that I don‘t know how to get rid of them. I‘m scared that I will never be able to live a normal life because of these thoughts since I‘ve had them for so long now. I‘m really frustrated and don‘t feel like myself again. What would you suggest that I could do? Do you think I‘m just in denial, or…?