Hi anita

I recognize the inevitability of death. Especially during the pandemic. We are lucky to be alive, and we don’t know there’s a tomorrow. So being grateful and making the best out of each day is the way to go. I guess the fear is of suffering. Wanting peace and joy for when we are here. Thank you for those words. It really helps to put things in perspective. I think I’m jealous of people that have it easy in some of these areas, but again recognize that I’ll never know how much another person is suffering and also that other people have it worse than I do.

Worrying is of no use. It will not bring me solutions. I think it is fear that something will be too much for me, in this case it is, and wanting to not go through it again. Not wanting my mom to be down. I don’t want to see her devastated again.

I must work on being kind in action and words. I get carried away in anxiety that I forget the big picture. In fact, if I think about the big picture, none of things I worry about – finding love, and what not, wouldn’t really matter. We just have to make the best of what we get.

Girija