Anita,
I didn’t ignore your posts. I understand the effects of the childhood issues and the effects of it on me. Looks like I can’t change the user name here. But anyway these are not something new that i have written. I have told her all these already that that i am not a drunkard and everything so nothing new.
I will work with the rehab and understand the severity of my addition. I will also work on reversing the effects of childhood issues. And i want to heal my inner self and want to be able to handle any emotional feelings. For now I think I need to go through this pain and no other option. Many thanks to you for pointing out few of the core issues and its effects.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 