Teak,

As a first step in accept i have drinking issue. When i start drinking i have no control, my friends have also told this.  But have not drink since last week though. Right now I am not tempted to go back to friends and drink. I will see how this goes. When i go to Bangalore i will try to diagnose and understand myself. I want to also do a clinical depression diagnosis.  My thoughts are so jumbled now as always, couldn’t articulate my mind clearly. But i realise i have some core issues that makes me heavy while in an emotional relationship, and Also the trouble with alcohol. Now i realise i want to heal myself from inside and want to be completely reborn. I want to go through the pain now because there is no option. Will post in few days.