I had thought I was doing okay at work, but I am burning out.  I had to sleep over at work last night.  I had a very interrupted sleep with one client burning and another up at 4.30am.  I accidentally gave w people their evening meds instead of morning meds at around 6am – working on my own. I can see how the mistake was made also as those 2 clients both crowd around you in the morning. One of them is obsessed with my hair and kept touching it.

I hope I dont lose my job over this.  It’s possible.  I was going to go back to work to fill in for somebody who has a sick child, but I had to c small back and say I can’t come.  I have a cold sore on my mouth and feeling very run down.

I don’t have the date yet to go into hospital.  I have leave owing to me and feels like forever since I h ad a holiday.

I even woke through t he night dreaming that a client had come into my room.

The facility had requested a roster review some time ago, as we have to do more 12 hour shifts and sleepovers than most places. There is young lady who works there too, and she has told me she is burning out. She has a baby who is sick at the moment.

The majority of the staff are very nice except for one guy who is so rude and smug.  He was taking over from me this morning and very rude. When I had to call back to say I can’t do the fill in, he told me about the medication error..this is a serious mistake to make. It means they had sleeping pills in the morning.  Though they both normally are up at 5.2pam, don’t know if they will sleep much.

There is a thunderstorm about to hit here today, and I’m glad I won’t be driving the 35kms each way in bad weather for that shift.

I have become aware too that I need to curtail my checking up of the Ukraine situation because of the feelings of illnesses right now. News this morning that Australia’s most famous ex-cricketer died overnight in Thailand while holidaying.  He had a heart attack and was only 52 years old. I would think he will be given a state funeral. So hard to believe.  Male friend only 48 years old died from a heart attack in his sleep last year.

I think it’s because of so much stress we live under. I have known I couldn’t work these hours forever, but I’m upset to have made this mistake, and I will have to front up to authority on it. I hope I dont lose my job. I may have to go to other facility – if I don’t get sacked from the organisation.