Sasha,

I have the same feeling right now. It started about a year ago. But I was in college for my first year in 2020 and slowly began to realize that school isn’t for everyone and it definitely doesn’t mean everything, especially over your own health. I though for the longest time to make good money you have to have a degree, which can be true in some cases but there is MORE to life than the typical go to college and get a career that you’ll be doing your whole life. But what if you’re not happy with that career as you come to realize? I learned in Sociology that we should question the familiar. Not everything is as it seems, just because it’s the typical thing to do doesn’t mean it’s right for everyone. I’m on your boat because I see so many people around me being successful and living happy lives and I have no clue what I am doing or what makes me happy. I feel like I definitely lost my sense of self as well.

I think this vacation will help you decompress and relax from the stressors of reality. Sometimes you have to take a step back and realize the world is constantly moving hectically, but you can take a few breaths away from that caos and indulge in what you makes you happy. I am taking a break from school to find my real interests because I’ve never had the chance to do that since I’m always doing SCHOOL. I think you should take this vacation as a time to enjoy your environment and connect with your inner “engineering.” Maybe even take a break from school until you know what feels right for you.

I hope you the best, it will all workout for a reason.

As long as you’re happy, you could be changing jobs your whole life. <3