I just found out that the bump on my shoulder won’t go away unless i took a surgery to have them cut the bump, and i didnt want that. The recovery treatment without surgery is only to reduce any pain if i suffer from it. But in my case there isnt any pain, only a bump on the shoulder.

I’m feeling devastated right now as i’m going to live the rest of my life with that bump. I should’ve feel grateful of my appearance back then, now i did a mistake that is permanent. It’s hard for me to swallow this fact.

I feel like this is my punishment for not being grateful back then, but still this is too harsh on me.