Anita-

Lots going on this might be a long message.  First off the vacation was amazing-so much fun.  Since I returned on Monday I have noticed a few things. First off I am exhausted and my gas tank is not filling up.  This happens during trips. Maybe it is because I’m not at home in my bed and not on my schedule?  I feel a bit guilty because of how nice it was for Jason to plan this trip that was centered around what he felt I would enjoy.  On a positive note I think that my anxiety attachment is improving.  He can tell right away when I’m off. He senses so much so quickly.

I feel crowded. I am watching his dog until Monday because he went to Colorado to ski until Monday.  I am noticing my texts are short to friends and when I’m off of work (work has been very steady) I’m mentally done for the day.

I am 75% sure that he goes on more than 1 trip a year by himself (less than family trips) which could cause issues. (this is in the future so why stress now)

I feel like I am being negative when I have positive things going on.  I am continuing to reduce how I respond to my ex because I am limiting conversations- my brain is relearning to not keep the same patterns.

Since we have started texting I have wanted to be in a happy and healthy relationship and here it is.

Lindsey