Dear anita

I agree with you. Temporary relief are better than no relief at all. For learning a new skill or improuveing something, constancy and patience is key longterm.

I also agree with your reflection about that suffocating feeling. All those feelings lead to the point of lacking the connection with my inner and stable self, which is also important to feel confident in myself. For sure the physical health is one of the most important base for feeling good. I would say with a more or less healthy habit with diet and sport I fullfill that aspect. Also to have some close friends to talk to or to meet up, help to feel accepted and to get new perspectives on life. But the tendency during the time I am alone, those suffocating feelings haunt me. I do try to distract myself with walks, playing the piano, watching movies/series ect. Unfortunately like sports I can’t distract forever from those uncomfortable thoughts.

Sesha