Hi, I know this post is a bit old but I am going through a self esteem journey myself and am finally here with the problem I face, just like as you described. But Dorothy, I wish I could read that link you sent but they had deleted it and I’m hoping you see this and can relay some more details. Im on the journey to unlearn this and want to stop feeling this way. Dorothy, your last paragraph also made me cry, you really do know the journey and it feels so good to be understood. If anyone has anything else to help me with this please share or I’m happy to talk to someone.