Thank you so much ma’am

No I have never mentioned suicide to my parents and him.I am going to live. It’s just i am finding it very hard to give up as I know at some point my parents would have agreed and he says that he’ll consider this in future if parents agree. Which confuses me. I ask him either to completely say no or atleast tell me he is with me or not.But he on the other hand runs away saying that this comfort is addicting and we can not talk till then.Just keep moving forward until these feelings end and if parents agree we’ll talk. How will parents agree if we are not even talking and not even trying?