Hi there again,

I am feeling so much depressed lately, I stay in bed all the time and get anxiety attacks.Its a feeling like everything from my stomach will come out.I have no interest left in anything.I stare at the roof all the time.Like my brain is put to some anesthesia.I get anger outbursts.Last night i was crying then my parents came nd gave me two hour of a talk.Where they say things like …i actually don’t remember…like some memory loss.

Then they curse me in abusive words that I’ll never be happy in life because I made them sad.I chose this for myself.That our generation has started choosing for ourselves and have no maryada.That go away with him.We have people here who can take care of us.We will never be happy.I just can’t concentrate study …how do I jump into the race of competitive exams.Every second i am suffocating and only surrounded by negative thoughts.I really want to take my life but can’t.Every second i just think about him.More of some obsession .i can’t eat or sleep properly.although i am in bed all the time.i have started hating myself so much.I am not a good child.