i guess i’m also asking if our relationship will ever feel like it did before? whenever i try to act normal, i feel a stabbing pain of guilt inside me.

i feel like with time, it’ll be better because we will make new experiences and move on with our lives. but i’m scared to feel close to my partner since i feel like i hurt them. i feel like i did something unforgivable.

i love them so much and don’t want to lose them. i feel like a terrible person for committing this mistake.