Thank you very much helcat for your reply.

I haven’t spoke to him about my concerns/worries about marriage yet. My parents are going through a horrible divorce and the thought of ever getting married and going through that fills me with dread. That’s my issue though which I need to deal with.

I do agree with you when you say there is obviously an issue. I think there is a lot I need to speak to him about and probably vice versa. Although I really can’t see or I don’t want to see myself with anyone but him as a life partner. I am just ashamed it’s taken me to do this to realise that? 

I’m from the UK and 16 is the legal age. To be honest where I’m from it’s very normal to be sexually active at 16, most if not all of my friends were 16 when they became sexual active.

Around 4-5 years ago he was flirting and made comments to a girl at a friends house party. Sexual remarks. He was ill for weeks over it and I got over it very quickly. He has been honestly the most supportive and loving partner to me the last 5 years.