So I am still at home .. bedridden…but i am going for further studies to different town…..the situation in the family has worsened…i was beaten by my mother to the point where my nose started bleeding.my fault was she was abusing him and I wanted her to stop.She loses control and i am  becoming like my mother too. When i get up the first question is when are you leaving. You are curse to the family. My mother’s mother puts fuel to it all the time.My mother keeps talking to her and crying whole day infront of me mocking about me and saying she did this to us. Whole day almost. Then she sleeps all day doesn’t cook meals. Yesterday I ate after one and half day. Yes I can cook for myself but i don’t feel like going in their kitchen when all of this is happening. Constantly i am told to die so that they can live in peace. My father doesn’t talk to my mother and me. Both. He cooks for himself and eats alone.when i try to go out nd ask for certificate she starts beating me and fighting me.When i try to cut off from her she doesn’t let me do that too.what do I do in a situation like this. I have become idk what.When i tell him all of this he says parents do say such things. It’s okay. Give it time.leave it to God. Miracles do happen. And we do have three years. I am not asking you to wait either. I had never expected him to be this person.When i needed him he ghosted me in a way. I do love him but I’ll try not to wait.I am so angry with the situation.How do i do life on my own. I feel so insecure when someone starts talking to me. I don’t have family or anything nor i am that beautiful. I haven’t achieved anything in life too.Is this how my life going to be forever? If not what do I do with it.