Dear Eric:

“I feel that way because the mistake I made… I only magnify my mistakes into disasters on the crucial mistakes“- what you refer to as mistakes are symptoms of anxiety. Anxiety  is in the core of your obsessive thinking, social anxiety and body dysmorphia. I repeatedly suggested to you over the years to see a medical doctor or a psychotherapist. Did you ever considered seeking professional help (a medical doctor and/or a psychotherapist) so to deal with your core issue, which is anxiety?

Your life can be so different, so much better if you seek and receive professional help!

anita