Hi Tee

Yeah that’s kinda what i was thinking. That he was interested but it got too close for comfort. He postede on instagram that he struggles with showing love after what he went through and I know i have done the same patterns that he is showing. And he is getting closer to moving to another country. He’s brother only got invited along right before he left his house, and he had plenty of opportunities to cancel but didn’t since i asked him to specefically teach me karate and not everything else. And staying hours after just talking. I think we might have the same attach ment issues here, we keep getting close to each other and then it stops and starts again. I did the same with a guy pre pandemic i liked him but the moment he wanted me i bolted and whent with a guy that wasn’t good. The thought of intamicy was scare i will even start to physically shake when a guy gets close intimate or physically. And I definitly think his behaviour on Monday was very much self sabotaging. Because in person and over text he was completly normal and kept trying to find things for us to do and then 5 min before his behaviour changes.

I am writing to try and regulate my emotions so I can move on and not hurt like this for too long