Yes exactly! I rather try it out and have it be not what i imagen, then being in this what could have been. Also just getting the fun times with intamicy and dating experiencese before that bad stuff. I rather have the fun stuff then loose it then just the pain without the good stuff.

That’s why losing the guy earlier this year wasn’t as hard. Because we had the best time together and made so many memorices. Nobody can take that away from me i will always cherish it. But losing something good when you just feel it’s about to get good. That’s a pain that’s horrible for me to deal with.