Dear anita,

Great idea into turning the obsessions into humor, i laugh when you mentioned some of my obsessions… i guess i could try thinking about my obsessions in a funny way, maybe it could help a bit….

– On Oct 15 (page 1 of this thread), you mentioned feeling exhausted after the first date, and in my reply to you on the same day, I talked about the reasons for your exhaustion in the 3rd and 4th paragraphs. Will you please read those paragraphs and let me know if you agree with what I wrote there, and/ or if you have other thoughts as to the reasons of your mental exhaustion following dates with her?

= Yes you are right, i’ve been focusing on all the negatives and it’s not due to her… even right now typing this i still feel anxious….

I feel like i feel exhausted after the date is because i’ve been trying to maintain the date as good as possible…. And if there’s a mistake i’d feel down (just like that messy hair problem) cause it might lead to her leaving (yes this is an obsession)….
Cause i know i cant take another heartbreak, the last one was painful…. And the more i get closer to her, the heartbreak will be more painful….. I’m also confused if i should confess to her at the end of the year… but then i read that after 3 years of relationship.. people get married… and im still 23, in 3 years i’d still be 26 and she’s 24…. I feel like it’s too young… and im not sure if i’ll be mature at that age… I feel like the best age to marry is when i’m near 30 years of age… Also i saw most people get bored in their 3rd year of relationship…..

I keep thinking of ideas so that i can maintain this momentum with her so she wont get bored of me….. when i really focus on her i cant really focus on other things…. And this is exhausting too, but at the same time i wanna focus on her….

Most survey also said that most people dont marry their first relationship… and if she accepts my confession then it’ll be my first….

She’s also still in uni now, what if she changes her mind about me when she’s working?

But then i wanna try being a relationship with her… It’s so confusing and exhausting….

And i also i feel like it’s too good to be true if i could be in a relationship with her…. Because she’s my type of girl…..