Dear thesedays,

it seems you feel that you should make your decision now, immediately, whether to break up with her, or stay:

For those years of trying, I know the time has come. … I wanna be firm on my position right now and decide which path I should go.

What causes that urgency? Is she expecting you to commit? Or your environment is (e.g. family’s expectations to get married, things like that)?

I would like to ask (you don’t need to answer if you don’t feel comfortable talking about it): what do you feel is missing from your current relationship? You said your relationship is “peaceful”. But there is something missing… Do you know what it is?