Good morning, Anita
It’s Friday and the weekend is coming.
Anyway, I called him this morning and he did not answer the phone.  I was going to send the text but I decided to wait for a day.
After a while, I received an email from him.
“It’s good to hear that you’re doing well. I didn’t think your situation was causing you so much pain. It’s hard to realize how things bring us to certain places. I see you reaching out and I’m not avoiding you but will call you when the time is right. Ok? Glad you’re doing better.”
I did not understand “your situation was causing you so much pain”, I think he meant to say himself.
So, now I cannot reconnect with him until he contacts me.  I know I could if I want to but if I do, he will be mad at me again.
This is what happened most of the time.  I used to push through it if I wanted to see or do it.  I no longer do this.
But again, I cannot get back my belongings for a while.  It could be a few days, a few weeks, or a few months.
Mentally, I can talk to him if he is normal but I do not want to hear any negative words from him anymore.  I’m broken and I cannot take anymore negative words from him.

I like to hear black/white answer which sometimes is good but sometimes not.
I read this email as he has no interest to reconcile with me so, why did not say it?  Move on, let it go.

I should not think that I cannot control.  So, I will relax during the weekend.
I wish I have a friend who can go out with me.
Thank you again Anita for your warm and kind support every day.
You may not know how much your daily message helps me every day.
If I know where you are, or I can meet you, I would love to give you huge hugs.