Dear Anita

absolutely , we should continue  the discussion ,

i had somehow different experiences with people but it was as dysfunctional . i put people on pedestal , i valued them more than myself they noticed it and somehow use it against me time to time not following through their promises or try to deceive me thinking i wouldnt dare to cut the ties with them cause they were so important and after a while i got sick with them , sometimes i avoided them completely and sometimes if the situation was so frustrating i exploded and told them how i really feel about them , in the same time my inner thoughts were confirmed , PEOPLE ARE OUT TO GET ME , NOBODY IS TRUSTWORTHY and that made me even more isolated . recently i realised almost all of people surrounding me have some similar characteristics which i mentioned in my first post , i.e lack of motivation , laziness , etc and i compare the people who helped me in very hard situation , mostly a acquaitance or somebody i barely know who were very helpful and kind by nature , and i realized not all people are bad but im surrounded  by them all my life ,maybe they are not bad really but the circumstances mad them to be , anyway we should avoid them .

i`m glad that you progress in your journey of trusting people, hopefully i get there too . i would be so happy to hear from you again in further posts , take care .