Dear anita,

This isnt the possible mistakes, but rather my disappointment in myself yesterday….

So before the food was served i pretend to the toilet and after that i immediately went to the cashier to pay the food bills… I want to treat that dinner, but than that girl saw me and told me i cant pay because her parents was the one who invited…. I was disappointed because when she said that i didnt keep insisting that i have to pay, then i just give up and let her pay… after the dinner i regret it… i shouldve keep insisting that i was the one paying… To have a better impression on her parents and because i think that a guy have to treat the girl’s parents… idk how her parents might think of me that in the end they are the one paying…. I feel like next time i need to be quicker and unnoticeable, but then i failed yesterday…

The other one was because at that dinner i was so quiet, as i thought in the first meeting i shouldnt talk too much and just let her parents ask what they want to know about me…. But then they didnt asked a lot…. After the dinner, that girl told me that her parents dont want to ask a lot because they dont want to make me uncomfortable… On this issue, i feel like i need to speak more to her family members…. As her mother told her, that her impression is that im a quiet person, and a guy shouldnt be too quiet….

The meeting was quite okay because her mother was friendly to me… she even took a fish meat and put it in my plate….

And that dinner is because of her brothers birthday dinner so i was invited…. Although at that dinner they didnt bring any cakes and the dinner was only her parents, her brother, her and me…. Her sister was out of town…. Luckily i brought a cake to that dinner, for her brother… and her mother thank me and told me in a smile and friendly way “its okay you dont have to trouble yourself in bringing the cake”

Also her family was more friendly than i was expected….

This is my first time experience meeting a girl’s parents…

After that dinner i went home in disappointment, i felt so much pressure that everything is now serious…. Like i need to be financially and emotionally stable…. I even woke up several times in my sleep, as i feel i did lots of mistakes….

I really really wanna cherish her, i hope i can be strong in accepting this pressure…. And it look like there is going to be another dinner with her parents again soon, this time with her sister and her future husband…. I hope i can talk more and also i need to be quicker and unnoticeable to pay the bills….. If i failed to pay again on that dinner, i’m planning to invite her parents on a dinner… as i want to treat them as a hosts…

But before eating with her parents again, she’s going to have lunch with my parents this week…