dear Anita

thank you very much for your note , it warmed my heart ,

to answer your question, well , thats hard . if you saw me in person , you would think , you can easily take advantage of me , not that you would .im laid back and dont talk too much except with people im comfortable with .but if somebody crosses me im assertive as hell , im gonna call them out , not all the times though , some people including my father and his brothers family , the infamous aunt i talked about , they were more subtle and at that time i wasnt aware i was taking advantage of , so i didnt react versus bullies like my mom , my sister ,  some classmates some of my colleagues were more open and wanted to intimidate me , then storm was gonna follow . i know im strong person , and that pissed off a lot of people including my dad but sometimes i was mistreated because of my strength , maybe they wanted the challenge to break me even harder or i was abandonned for my step mother for example because he knew i could handle mistreatment and i`m strong or foolish ?? enough to forgive him but she was gonna hurt herself or him because she was gonna have a total meltdown .

Did you change that much? yes i did , a lot . i have now zero tolerance for others bs , thats why i cut ties with lots of people and i have no regrets .

Farnaz