Dear anita,

she is like you, she worries too. I hope that she doesn’t overthink as badly as you do.. but she worries.

= yes she worried too sometimes…. Mostly she discussed about a topic in which her sister fights with her ex… She doesnt want both of us to fight like her sister and her ex…

you can tell your stories here, but you should also see a quality professional (not just any professional). You are trying too hard and too much, and that’s not good for you, or for her.

= I’m trying very hard to avoid any crack on our relationship… But then there are some things that’s unexpected or out of my control….

Everytime finish calling her, i always feel that i shouldnt say some of those words… like i feel i should just keep quiet on some of those words i said, cause those words might probably cause a discussion which might create a probability of a crack in the relationship….

Also like for example, if her sister suggested her to not continue with me.. and she accepts her advice…. This is out of my control right? But i’ll try my best to convince her to be with me…. Because i really regard her as a precious person and i want to make her happy….

Because i feel like she always look up to her sister, and i feel like her sister can give her a decision, and she might gladly accepts…

Do u think to avoid overthinking on unexpected situations, i should just think it this way “what’s meant to be will be”? Or is it a wrong way of thinking….

why don’t you read about OCD (and about social anxiety disorder) from online sources, maybe it will help you..?

= yes i do, sometimes i watch OCD videos on youtube… and also how people share their experience on OCD…

I think that she already knows quite a bit about you and your worries…  and she loves you anyway, don’t you think?

= Yes she does know a bit of my worries and still loves me… But i feel like my maturity is more mature than her, and she’s a person who doesnt think a lot too much on the future… well she does think but not a lot… she’s a person who tends to go with the flow… that’s why she seldoms overthink….

I just hope this type of mindset of her wont create any future problems…

There are also some boys who texted her, but she told me that she ended the conversation with them… because she only wants me…. This makes me think… should i tell our relationship to public? To avoid her being text by guys which could make me overthinking…. But im really happy when she said that, she ended the conversation with them, because all she wants is me… im so grateful…

But im also tired to be talk about by public, because if i show my relationship with her to public…. It’ll causes lots of people to talk about us… like many of her friends might ask her “who is he”

I even feel anxious whenever instagram has a new feature, cause it could create new ways for boys to text her… and i dont want that….

I also have introduced her to my family, and the meeting went well… and surprisingly she said my family is funny… because at that time my dad interact some joke with my sister…. I never thought she’ll be happy with my family atmosphere… i love her more and more…. I dont want to lose someone this precious…. I feel very lucky meeting her….