EDITED PART (The above one was confusing, so just read this one)

Dear anita,

Before i explain the facts that happen yesterday, i’d like to thank you for always listening to my stories… i really am thankful…

– The list of facts that happened yesterday are:

So yesterday on my meeting with her, before arriving at the restaurant, i asked her why didnt she invite me to eat with her parents? Isnt she told me before christmas holidays she’d like to invite me.. i asked her if her family has a dinner before her sister and her boyfriend went on holiday and she told me there is…. I told her why didnt she invite me… she told me at that time she was told after she finished her uni on 8.30 pm and immediately went straight to eat with her parents… her sister told her to invite me… but she didnt invite (not telling me) because it was really rushed, because she was informed like that and i used to told her i dont like things to be rushed… Should i be disappointed? As if i meet her sister that time maybe i can give a good impression…

The second fact that happened is that she told me her aunt texted her asking if she’d like to get to know a guy.. this guy is close to her aunt… Her aunt doesnt know that she is close to me now, so her aunt give this girls whatsapp to that guy so they can interact…. (I’d like to say what i felt her but u requested for me to only spill the facts, so i wont explain how i felt here)… And that guy would text her, but that girl told me she wont bother him. If i remember correctly, she told her aunt that she’s close to me now.. and her aunt told her “ahh too bad, that guy is a bit late by a few months”

Her sister told her, “wow it looks like your flower has bloomed a lot this year, that lots of guys chase you”….
Who wouldnt feel pain hearing these stories right?

– As for the mistakes that i did

I told her that my mom met her sister in a formal event….

Here’s an explanation,

So my mom is a friend of her sister’s boyfriend mom… Let’s say her boyfriends name is A. So i used to told my mom before i chase this girl, that i plan to chase A’s girlfriend’s younger sister… but i told my mom to not tell A’s mom because it would low my dignity as i dont know A… and it would make it seem like i look highly of A that i discussed about him when he doesnt know me….

Then last week my mom attend a formal event, and met A’s mom, they sit together in a table in which there is also her sister.. My mom talk a lot with A’s mom and also communicate a bit with her sister… but my mom didnt tell her sister that she is my mom (as i requested her to not to)

So yesterday when that girl told me that her aunt wanted her to get to know a boy (the guy that is close to her aunt)…. I feel sadness and anger, in which that guy has a support which is her aunt, so immediately felt that i need a support so i told her that my mom met her sister in a formal event… i told her this so that her sister will know that my mom is friends with A’s mom… so she will know im not some random guy who just wants to get close to her sister and i have a good background and my presence would be more convincing,

idk if this will lead her sister and her to find out that my mom and me has planned and discussed about them before i get to know that girl, it would be embarrassing isnt it? Like i really regard highly of A, i even dragged my mom into this…
Her sister might also wonder how my mom know about her…

– Regarding the unloved part,

So this week that girl is in her exams period in uni so she is stressed, in yesterday’s we didnt talk a lot but i still feel like she still loves me, its just that its not equal to my efforts… as on yesterday’s dinner before i went on a holiday today… i bought a cake for us to celebrate advance christmas… but she didnt give me much attention…. She’s too focused on her uni and we went back early because i need to wake up early and she needs to submit her assignment….

She also told me next year she will have more assignments and have to work on her thesis…  she told me to please bear that she might often reply late as she will be more stressful and busy…

Luckily on yesterday’s dinner i can still hold my sadness and disappointments, so i still smile and act normally… although i keep asking her regarding that guy who her aunt wants her to get to know…

As a person who never has any experience in relationships, im confused on how to handle all these pressures at once….

Moreover, adding all the facts and problems above makes it even more stressful to me…