I dont know if this is a “scratch” or not….

So i feel really pressured by her sister’s boyfriend/future husband… today is that guy’s birthday and he held a big party (he’s very wealthy) in which he invites his girlfriend’s family (including the girl im dating), his friends, his parents business connection & friends, and other lots of people he relates with…..

I didnt come as i havent get to know him……

I feel like i need to get close to being like him, otherwise i’ll get judged…

Idk if this is me being insecure with that guy…..

As a person who always lives in a less interacting environment/quiet surroundings….. i’d never have my birthdays like that…. and if i get to know that guy later on…

i’ll have to attend to those kinds of gathering/party’s right…. because if i chose to be with the girl im dating with…. i’ll have to have a good relationship with her sister’s boyfriend/future husband surely…. and when i saw the pictures of the people that guy relates with, makes me feel i’ll get my energy drained there…..

I used to avoid people that gets my energy drained, and just interact with people im ok with, unless it is work purposes…..

And this girl im dating with looks up to her sister, i hope her sister wont tell her to demand me to be like that….. i also hope that guy wont look down and judge me…..

Although im worried, i also feel that i need to be confident around that girl as i cant act im afraid and worried……