Dear anita,

I thought a honeymoon period means a time (regardless of the duration in number of months) when you’re in-love and happy, not in-love and anxious and worried. So, according to my definition, you didn’t yet have a honeymoon period.

= yes, even the first few months when im trying to get to know her, im also in an anxious and worried state which leads me into planning everything on the date to not make mistakes at all….

I really want to experience it being “in-love and happy” with full of trust, without worrying at all….

It makes me sad because I would very much like you to be happy and worry-free for at least a while, so that you can taste a different kind of life and want more of it.

= Thank you, it always makes me feel emotional whenever someone said these kind of words to me…. Because sometimes i also pity my own self, that i’ve been suffering for so long and rarely feel loved…. I also want to feel loved just like anyone else… this is why whenever i feel like im interacting in a good environment that doesnt drain my energy, i feel happy already…. Even when i’m not interacting, just being in that environment is already a happy thing for me….

A worry-free mind is always what i wanted, but most situation always makes it hard for me to achieve that… i’m trying to look things in a more bigger picture and trying to dwell less, i think this method has a positive impact on me…

and as you say it’s my own responsibility to find ways for myself, and im trying my best for it… i really am….