Hi Tee,

I agree, being with him wouldn’t have been a good idea there wouldn’t have been any guarantee that he wouldn’t have cheated when drunk or high, and from the sound of it he’s still doing it even though he just started seeing this girl. Her affection towards him was very clear based on her position he was not showing any emotion probably because they were at work. He was only facing and talking to the girl in front of him and only started talking to the girl after her friend left. She was also the one who kept asking him to join for drinks, and she was the one who wanted him to join for drinks the day that he just nodded to me. This was the thing i feared not being with him is bad enough but knowing that this girl is getting what i want is the worst.

I gonna try not to expect things from him, he been weird around me almost the entire time we’ve known each other he wont change around me now. There’s clearly something that makes him react like this only he knows the real reason why. It hurts and I know this will take time, I’m counting down to him leaving then it will be a lot easier. I barely see him at work he only works three days a week now (has been since septemper) and sometimes he has been working on days I have been off work.