Hi anita,

Glad to hear about your arm!

Well I might’ve written the things that gave an idea of a romantic interest. But no. I’m not romantically interested in her. I was just very used to her company I guess. And the point I was trying to make with calls was of jealousy; not as in I need her to talk with me like that, it was of I need someone to talk to as well. I hope it makes sense.

And the conversation was pretty random. She saw a couple in front of us and asked me if I’m in romantic love with someone right now (She clearly knew I had a girlfriend at that time). And I confirmed and said yes. And that put her off. Her response meant that all these people, including you, are in love and I find it annoying or frustrating. I didn’t like that response of hers.

So basically these days I felt that I became her. Just like the time I was in a relationship while she was single and trying to move on, she was passive aggresively mentioning her discontent. And now that she is presumably in one and I’ve broken up, I find myself jealous. I feel like I would’ve rooted for her if she wouldn’t have stone walled right after she got into one. It makes me feel like I was only a play time toy (again I’m only talking about our platonic friendship), and once she got a better distraction, she ghosted me.

This is why I felt humiliated and embarrased over the obsession of our friendship I have/had. I felt embarassed to feel jealous of my friend being in a relationship. It’s very childish of me.

Anyhow, I think a sensible thing for me to do is give her her own space. And find myself other friends and activities, especially during the call hours when I can keep myself busy with something else. Does it sound like a better idea?

Also, yes. I’ll suggest her to make calls outside after the bedtime. This was one of our rules, to begin with.

Thank you for your response, as always. Have a great day or night!

-Java