Hi Tee,

Yes I definitly need to trust my instict more, and stop listening to bad advice. All the cliches I’ve heard like if it’s meant to be it will be, always caused a lot of harm because that’s something outside of my control. I need to deal with my anxiety, disorganised attachment, fear of intimacy, low self worth and self sabotaging behaviour. Only then will I be able to have a healthy relationship with another.

Start with what you were saying. Exposure therapy, trying to stay and not just run away.

I talking about this has given me soo much perspective on my patterns, my mom send me a link to a therapist over here and she sounds really good. Been on tv and worked with Tony Robbins but I’ts really expensive so I have to save up.

Weird thing that happened. My friend (the one the cute guy invited to his birthday but couldn’t remember his name) told me he wants to date me. Apparently everybody at work think we are dating, and he is interested. Didn’t see that one coming. We have been working together (he’s a chef in the café) since June and he’s never flirted with me or anything like that. He also said that in his culture they don’t beat around the Bush and tell someone straight away, so that took me completly off guard.