Dear helcat,

Thank you for the technique suggestion, i’ll read more about it and tell you how is it impacting to me….

As you’ve suggested imagery, i used to use ways by hearing calming music in youtube while i close my eyes…. Trying to calm myself from overthinking and worries… But it’s not really working as im impatient…

I’m also going to share that this is recurring anxiety due to the theme of being afraid she will leave you as you have anxiety about not feeling good enough. It isn’t really linked to occasions, this is a constant fear for you. But occasions such as this do bring it to your attention.

= Yes, you are right i’m afraid that she’ll leave due to im not good enough…. But is this not linked to ocassions? It’s due to my inner fear?

Like for example if she doesnt go into staycation with her friends, it’s definitely safer right? Like no boys will notice her…. But due to this occassion, it’s exposing her existence and showing her pretty appearance which might trigger boys to initiate a text with her…

All i can hope is that what she post later on wont trigger any boys…

I’m trying to find several ways to calm myself and i’m gonna use your suggestions too, because i’ll never stop thinking about it till she finishes her staycation….

I’m trying to calm myself while planning for those 2 events with her….