Hi Tee,

Sorry for my very very late reply, things at work have been mental. Three male collegues of mine are under investigation (by the company I work for) two for inapropiatly behaviour of sexual nature, I had to to give a statement too, and one for abusing behaviour with the kitchen staff, like making people cry (two quit on the same day9 and even biting staff (wtf!) like that wasn’t enough we had a private party in the bar, we have had them before always the same group of people but they have been acting out at the last many event like trowing ice and stuff at my collegues (I used to work them all but now I don’t) the last one we had, one person started a fight in reception, punched my manager in the face and it ended up on the street just outside in a fatal stabbing. My parents are coming to visit me next week and I don’t want them too worry about it, I was supposed to work the night shift that night but swaped shifts with one of the 19 year olds. We are having a staff meeting about evrything tomorrow.

Yes your right. I just took it as a push them away for months and the right one will of course keep fighting for me and not let it stop them.

I’m trying to do exposure therapy with that guy. Just a little bit. Like the other day I was having a coffee before my shift started and he came in to make himself a take away tea before going out to the park to read, but pulled out a chair and sat next to me. He didn’t really say anything and so my anxiety wanted me to just be scolling on my phone ignoring him and trying to distract myself but I choose to smalltalk instead asking him about his book. So a small thing but I didn’t let my anxiety win so I’m happy about that.

She is a clinical hypnotherapist and a NLP master practitioner, but based on the price and given the fact that all the therapy I have had didn’t really help I am not sure if this will help.

It’s still hard for me to wrap my head around because it came out of nowwhere and he never gave me any signals. He knows about the situation about the other guy, found out some months after we started working together. He’s really sweet, I can talk with him about anything. He’s very atractive and we have been spending quite a lot of time together. Maybe something will happen.