Dear helcat,

Yes im still uncertain whether to post the relationship on social media or not…. I need to be absolutely ready regarding all the judgements….

This issue does bring up some old thoughts, like what i’ve shared before that people tease my small house, and also i used to get mocked due to my family business which is an aquarium store as the shop is wet, and of course sometimes people make fun and underestimate me due to my appearance which is short….

And also i fear most boys (who followed my social media) might notice and look at her…. I dont want those boys to look at her and get attracted….. But i also want to post our relationship to show that she already has a boyfriend….

The date went well, but i did some mistakes… at night we watch stand up comedy show, but i didnt know the stand up comedy would have a lot of 18+ jokes…. I’m so afraid she might judge me, i blame myself why didnt i check more detail about it…. But luckily i think she’s quite ok with the show and doesnt judge or blame me…..

Also on that day i was so hasty, that i wanna quickly impress her…. I present her a valentine gift (not the handbag or bracelet) but a box filled with our pics and a letters that i wrote…. And her respond is very normal and not surprised or emotional….. and she laugh and told me that i give this too quick….. I really blame myself…. I was too worried that i might give her too much gifts on valentines day so i decided to give this one earlier, but turns out i was too quick…..

So on valentines day, which is tomorrow…. I plan to surprise her with the bracelet and handbag…. At first i plan to just give it to her along with the flowers when she get in the car… but i dont want her to have a normal reaction….. i also dont know what to write (as i plan to give a letter too for the gifts on valentines day) as all my ideas are written in the letter of that box (the box in which she has a normal reaction)…. She used to told me that she feels more emotional when there isnt a lot of people… so i cant surprise her in the hotel (the place where we are going to have our valentine dinner), then the surprise must be at my car…

I want to surprise her by asking her to close her eyes and put on the bracelet for her…. But im confused on how should i surprise her with the handbag… also with the flowers….