Hi Tee,

Yes he got fired, fairly quickly people are feeling so much better at work now. Now we are waiting for news about the other two.

We had the best time and very healing just to be like family and not have illness be the main focus, they met all my new collegues and the weather was amazing!

I am also doing a lot better and not getting as anxious and dysregulated around the guy. We just had a staff party and I felt really bad before hand because I knew I would have to see them as a couple. we had a double decker party bus (like the last one) We never said anything to each other just staying with our own group but at one point after a quick stop, he walked up and sat right infront of me (didn’t have too there was plenty of space to sit). We didn’t have like seats reserved people were kinda just moving around as they pleased, I was the only one who stayed in one place. So I didn’t like that he sat just right infront of me cuz I knew it was only a matter of time before she would join him and they would make out, and then me leaving would be to obvious that it was because of them since my coat and bag was there, so I just talked to my guy collegue who came up to me. Weirdly I didn’t get that “I feel sick to my stomach” kind of feeling that I always gets around seeing them together. And this time they were making out, like a lot a lot. And then later when his group (the new aussi girls) and everybody else were in the front of the bus and I was in the back dancing with three male collegues (not dancing together but seperate) and he walked down to my end just hanging there. I even looked like he was filming it definitly looked like it the way he was holding his phone, which was really weird when we were in the quiet end, and after some minutes she came running down to make out with him again. Feels like his still playing games.

But I’m proud of myself I stayed and I didn’t feel half as bad as I thought I would. I really did have an amazing time and was able to just enjoy it. I think it has something to do with the chef he has been really sweet. We were supposed to grab a coffe after his morning shift (I was off that day) but he ended up surprising me with tickets to a museum that has been on my to do list for a long time, he also talked about going to a park to watch the sunset but it got too cold so we went to a pub instead. He didn’t sleep at all that night (his dad suffered a heart attack three days earlier) and he did all of that. Even our collegues have been smiling a lot at us. He’s gonna go home to South America in two months to see his family for some time which I completely understand.