Hi Tee,

thanks for all the replies, I know it’s hard for her to talk about and I have thought myself that when she needs advanced notice that she needs time to get to a calm frame of mind, but there was never any follow up, and she always put it on me for not asking. She even said once that I’d never asked about Ava during our relationship which was none sense because I’d tried to get her open up numerous times before. She was having therapy but I think she talked more about what was going on between me and her and she then said she was swapping therapists as that one wasn’t helping her but I don’t know if she ever found another.

I know I have my own issues to sort out as well but I think the relationship with her child especially has always sat uncomfortable with me, its like a part of her life she doesn’t want to deal with and is happy for her daughter to be out of sight out of mind. She has always said she wanted to work on our problems but I fear this will always be an area she doesn’t want to confront which spirals my doubts about us having kids.