Hi Tee,

It is a harsh reality that at the end of the day this is her and what I envisioned she would be is a fantasy. Still I haven’t given up hope and I am struggling to process everything that’s happened, if she was genuine at the end of the day she will want to reconnect when she is thinking rationally. Over time the good memories will be more present than the bad ones (for me there wasn’t too many besides her rubber banding) and I think the feelings will return too. I am trying to not prepare for the situation too much because I don’t want to get too excited as it may not even happen.

I’m not sure why I get attached like this but I don’t think its from my childhood. Maybe I need to speak to my psych about it. I’m devastated, I’m pretty sure she is talking to someone she met on the dating app if my detective work is right, I have my suspicions due to social media. It really hurts that she would do me like that if it is the case. But if so I know eventually I will be stronger and she will be in the same cycle for a long time. Have I been lied to about everything she said? She left me in the dark and it is gut wrenching if she has already moved on.

If I do hear from her I will definitely post her reply here for advice.