Hi Tee,

I’m alright how are you?’

It’s been two overwhelming weeks lot’s of stuff going wrong (not neccesary big stuff but stressful things non theless)

I finally had the chance to talk to my manager two days ago and today my manager wanted to talk to me about it. Apparently the problem is that none of the agency workers have mentioned it to someone (the manager in charge of agency workers) or our general manager so they don’t have any statements from the people affected, that working in a kitchen is a hard job to be in in general, and then used an example of my collegue not doing her job after being told several times that he doesn’t snap without a reason and that he is a good chef, so unfortunatly I don’t think it will have an affect since our general manager is leaving in two weeks and the people who are willing to speak up aren’t directly affected by it. He then told me to tell people to speak to their agency manager if something isn’t right and then take it from there.

In regards to my guy he left for Portugal Monday to see some family and atend a birthday party/work before going home to Brazil on the 30th. I have been very happy and sad in that sense. On St Patricks day Friday he came to work to celebrate the day/have drinks to say hi to everybody before he leaves. I came back to find that the other guy had taken my spot (we found our own table away from the rest to get some privacy after drinking with them) said something like I wrote you or I’m gonna write you, my guy then went to smoke and the other guy stayed at our table. He retreated into his awkward self. Just sat there. So I had to be in charge of the conversation, something I always hate doing since I’m not good at it.  We had quite a long conersation before he said that he had been away from the group for too long and they probably wondered where he was. It went really well, there wasn’t any anxiety or nervousness in me like there used to be and he and the rest went out to a techo party so we just had it to ourselves without and it became more intimate. He mentioned that he doesn’t start something unless he is sure that he is really interested (he finds relationships hard too due to trauma as well) it made me nervous but then he kissed me and hugged me. It was a really good night our collegues came over with free drinks and they even made us food after the kitchen closed. I left at 2 am so I could get my sleep (had work the next day and we were gonna spend Sunday together) and one guy from the kitchen could say goodbye to him (he didn’t want to interrupt us) they girls working the bar told me the next day that he is really in love but was nervous about kissing me cuz he was worried I might think it was too fast. I really really like him and we had a really good time together the day before he left, but I am very worried that him being away for that long is gonna make him forget about me. He isn’t a person who text a lot, he’s more in the present. He said that it’s not easy for him to be away from me for that long and that he is gonna miss me.

I’m trying to stay possitive and hope that this isn’t gonna end before it really starts.