Hi Tee,

Thank you very much, I’m getting better and better.

That makes sense, he knew how hurt I was and that I struggle in this department and that it takes long for me to detach from someone. It really was a huge shock when he said it, and I definitly felt my wounds being activated cuz now we started getting more intimate. And the process of going from friends to more just takes a bit of getting use to.

That’s some very good advice! The younger wounded parts of batteling with my adult self kinda. I’m trying not to take it too personally that he’s not a person who texts all the time, even my best friend is like that. It can easily take several weeks or even a month for her to reply, she’s trying to work on that.

Didn’t think about it that way, but your right. He knew for months about the other guy and he didn’t loose his interest in me

Yes, I did and still do in terms of X. I sometimes get the feeling she’s mad at me. Like when we are alone she seems fine but when other people are there she’s kinda giving me the cold shoulder. Like yesterday one of the boys wrote me asking me to go to a park, X, Y and another boy from work was going as well and I thought they knew but when I showed up X didn’t seem positive at all that I was there and whenever I talk she’s not responding to me and even looking at me. This has happened several times before, and I don’t know why but I just reminded myself that the rest didn’t have a problem with me being there, and I have never done anything (that I know of) to annoy her and if she has a problem with me then she should tell me. Am so I managed to have fun after all. I also don’t really hang out with the canadian girl, she’s been spending all her time partying with X and Y and staying out until 8 in the morning. She did say infront of X on St Paddy’s day that we need to go for another coffee and that she enjoyed our time together.

No nobody really wants her to be our manager. I like her as a friend but as a collegue it’s different. She doesn’t do her job as well as the rest. Never did half the work that I do in the café and even the managers noticed and said that he wasn’t reslly impressed with her performance. She’s party first work second, get’s drunk several times and has other people covering for her, and that has gotten people upset and now wants to leave. She doesn’t like working the bar anyone and left for reception, but since everyone has had their shifts cut and struggeling to make ends meet (I’m one of the few that didn’t get my shifts cut) she wanted the position. But she is better at telling people what to do instead of getting the job done. For me it is a bit hard to be told what to do at work by someone, who’s never actually done the work themselves. So I am worried about all the changes happening.