Yeah, maybe it’s because she was already stressed from her exams and the loss, and I ended up pushing her limits even more by contacting her friend (which she doesn’t like) that’s why her response was so bitter. I don’t know honestly if she needed me more than her but she keeps pushing people away, I do know that I am really attached to her so maybe I need her more than she needs me, there’s a part of me which hates her for throwing me away and there’s a huge part of me which is still in doubt if I leave her alone and then there’s another part in me which selfishly wants her all for myself and wants to be in contact for that reason, because supporting her made me happy, because it made me feel that I am able to do something for her.