Dear Kiersten:

I took in all the information that you provided, and considering it all, there is no doubt in my mind that it is indeed the right thing for you to not contact your mother no matter what, just like doctors and therapist advised you: “My doctors advised me not to speak to her until further notice… my therapist doesn’t want me contacting my mom because it’s not good for me mentally“.

“I’m paying installments to stay in a residential mental health program later this year“-

– Please do take care of your mental health. A cornerstone of mental health is to have no contact whatsoever with people who are toxic and abusive to you, and with people with active narcissistic and borderline personality disorders (“my toxic mother. She is a narcissist and borderline. She is very emotionally abusive towards me“).

About green tea, from health line. com: “A 2017 research paper found that drinking green tea may benefit cognition, mood, and brain function… A 2020 study also suggested that green tea is linked with 64% lower chance of cognitive impairment in middle aged and older adults… Summary: Green tea has functional ingredients that may combine to improve brain function and cognitive health”.

Isn’t it amazing, Kiersten that green tea has the opposite effects on you that your mother does: it benefits cognition; she harms your cognition, it benefits mood; she harms it… green tea benefits brain function (and therefore, it improves mental health) and your mother harms your brain function and therefore, your mental health.

Keep the green tea, place it perhaps as a decoration in your room/ home, as a symbol of what you should be focusing on: your mental health and doing what takes to promote it and maintain it.

anita