Dear Anita,

Yes, to answer your question it was about 11pm-midnight here that I was responding. I have had trouble falling asleep the past week, I believe it is because with my surgery recovery I can’t expend all my energy during the day since I can’t even walk very fast so I am just not tired at the end of the day. I was lying in bed wondering about our conversation and decided to read, then unlike other messages I have read beforehand, I felt I needed to respond and wanted to understand but now I will wait for further response on your part before I break down more of the message because I feel threatened by it. Not to say you’re wrong I just fear the implications and how could I be something I so badly don’t want to be? I have tried so hard to be objective with myself, and look at myself when it is uncomfortable because I don’t want to be unaware of how I impact others let alone impact others negatively.

seaturtle